Going Back to Work After Baby

This was SO HARD. 

So, before Brooklynn was born, I told everyone I knew, “Oh, I’ll go back to work full-time and I’m only taking six weeks off.” I had a lot of people calling me crazy, and I was. I am a hair stylist four days a week, and a lot of my clients come in every 4-6 weeks. I didn’t want to miss too many appointments or lose anyone. 

I did go back after six weeks. After I got through the first two weeks, I was exhausted. My body was still healing. I was an emotional roller coaster (my poor co-workers), and cried every night once I got home. Did it get better? Yes, but some days can still be hard. I have adjusted by hours so I can be home with Brooke a little more, but some days are still hard. We have an amazing home-care lady that watches her when we are both at work and I’m forever grateful for that. It made the transition back to work that much easier. With that being said, there are still days that I want to cry when I drop her off because I feel like I should be with her. 

When I was at work, I wanted to be home with her. When I was home with her, I was thinking about work. It takes time to find a balance, and it’s still not perfect, but it does get better. Whether you are a full-time working momma, part-time working momma, or stay at home momma, let me say this: YOU ARE ALWAYS A FULL TIME MOMMA! No matter your situation, it’s hard, it’s constant, and there is always going to be a struggle to find balance. You are doing great. You are doing the best you can. You are a great mom! It’s normal to cry. It’s normal to argue with your husband because you’re hormones are crazy and your exhausted. It’s normal to be sad, mad, & happy all at the same time. It’s NORMAL. I swear being a mom is like being superwomen on steroids. 

Balancing work and motherhood was and still can be one of the hardest things. Hang in there mommas! Just remember your baby loves you unconditionally and that makes every day worth it. 

Much love, Kiersten