Mom Guilt.

This has been something I never thought I would experience, but WOW, is it a real thing. Basically, when I am at work I feel like should be home with Brooke & vice versa. I love my job as a hairstylist, but once I became I mom, that became the most important job in the world.

Guilt area number two: I still have not been able to leave Brooke overnight at “grandma & papas” yet because I feel “guilty” that she will need me. It’s silly, but it’s also my reality. I know I could use a break and she would be more than ok (probably spoiled to death & have way more fun than home with boring old mom) but it’s hard to take the plunge.

The love a mom has for a child is indescribable. I never thought I could love someone so much. Now, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE my husband, but the love for a child is much different. The bond between a mom and her baby is incredible. I miss Brooke when I am not with her, yet sometimes when I am with her, I feel like I need a break. Finding a balance can be incredibly hard, but that’s something we learn as we go. Becoming a mom was the best thing that has every happened to me.

I am surrounded by many amazing moms, my own mother included. This has been so important. It helps to know I am not alone with feeling “guilty.” This feeling is normal. All you mommas out there: IT IS NORMAL. It is real, and it does get better. It is OK to take a trip to Target alone once your husband gets home (as long as you don’t spend your whole paycheck on home decor lol). It is OK to take a nap when your baby naps. It is OK to call your mom or best friend and just cry because you’re exhausted. It is OK to miss your baby & then need a break from them all in the same day. We are human. It’s a journey & a process. Be patient with yourself through the journey & if you take anything away from this post, remember this: YOU ARE AN AMAZING MOM! (now go get yourself a coffee and make sure you take some sips while it’s hot).

Much love, Kiersten.